1./ A Beginning...

Dear Readers,
Things are starting to change around me. My life in general. My big sister will soon be moving out. My little sister acts like she wants nothing to do with me anymore. My big brother... well he's a boy what else can i say. My mum doesn't really see it but she's changing too. It started with the new boyfriend, she's never really been good at choosing the right one. He's nice but i dunno, she just isn't the same when he's around - yes she's happy, which is the main thing, but whenever he's not around she never talks to us its like shes in a constant mood. She goes out whenever she can and then it just gets lonely. And then there's my dad, i wouldn't even call him that. He surely doesn't act like one. He remarried and has a new family - I just didn't feel welcome anymore. I'm not the typical teenager, who gets to go out all the time with her friends, have a boyfriend or have fun really. I certainly don't go out drinking or smoke, i don't get off with any guy i just meet or anything like that. I'm the responsible one in the family - well someone has to be and i guess it just lies on me. So, if i don't go out with my friends and don't have a boyfriend, what do i do? Well, i have tuns of hobbies and I can do in my spare time but i'm just so used to sitting around all day I developed a habbit. I Live In The Life Of A Constant Dreamer! I dream, it's probably not a good thing to get into the habbit of because you can get carried away but it's like addiction - i need it. It's the best part of my day. It's when i get to block out everything that's going on around me and finally focus on me - i'm in my own bubble, where no one disturbs me or can say anything to change something in my life. It's all in my head - I dream of the perfect life. Thats me ~ The Constant Dreamer...

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